The Nightmare

Richard Azzouz.

The Nightmare; It’s not healthy nor it is normal to experience a nightmarish life of possibilities constraints, to deal with a hurdle of difficult circumstances depravations beyond one’s control in a constant edgy panicking in an absurd nightmare. This crazy nightmare dream caused me to wake up at 3am. Mind you I’m in retirement for over 10 years now, yet I still dream of work, and its difficulties. My son Adam is born on the 5th of July 1997. In this nightmare he’s 5years old? What’s going on here? Who’s fucking with me? And why? The Nightmare. The ex-wife intentionally drops your 5 years old son coldly, at your apartment, and leaves irresponsible without any explanation; while you are in rush preparing to drive to work. Unexpectedly now you are searching for ways to improvise in a new predictive level of incertitude, and how to remedy leaving your five years child alone in an apartment building, in a suspicious strange environment, of a fast pace. Calling in sick, or? The studios where I worked do not accept any excuse except for a flue sickness, or wors, due to the nature of showbiz, and contractual obligations. I opted to prepare the little one by showing him passwords of my computer, food on the table, my cell phone, and how I can keep in touch with him? Since we both have one phone how will I communicate with him from work far out? I left for work after a little talk, and a warning of not opening the door to anyone. Got into the car while driving the traffic came to a standstill now, I’m late for work, and for sure I’m worried the minutes are ticking, thinking of my child all alone, and the fellow at work that I must relieve after his long tiring shift. Too late to call missed the window, the traffic jam turned into a protest by the Latinos in downtown Los Angeles, demanding fairness, and better treatment from the immigration administration, under the justice system. Stuck immobile in a car seat behind a polluting diesel truck’s exhaust pipe. Worried? Beat your ass I'm panicking here in my bed physically, while my brain is fucking with me. Mr. Richard Azzouz. Florida 10/18/22